Priorities

Two weeks. It seems like just yesterday that I was sitting here in my dorm room feeling completely unprepared for this year. And now the year is almost done.

I suppose the most obnoxious thing about having just two weeks left is the fact that I suddenly get insanely busy. 2 am becomes my new bedtime. Homework and ed projects pile around my room. Pink and lime green sticky notes of to-do lists plaster my walls. I want to see everyone before going home for summer... so every spare minute is spent with people. I love people. But as an introvert, I get drained.

So I find myself feeling completely exhausted after just three days of school... even though we just had a week break. And then I realize the main reason why I feel this way: even though I make such a point to spend time with so many people, I forget to spend time growing the most important relationship of all. My Heavenly Father. I fall out of bed, run through my day, get stressed out, and fall back in bed, leaving little time for Him. Just as all relationships take time and energy to nurture, my relationship with God is the same.

There comes a point where I just realize that I can't go on unless I get my priorities straight. So today I took a day to spend in prayer, reflection, and reading His love letter to me... the Bible. My phone was off, my computer was closed, my door was locked. Yes, school is important. Yes, friends are important. But God is most important.

Words can't express the refreshment I feel.

Beginnings

A first post to a new blog is an intimidating thing to write. I feel like I have to explain myself. That I have to explain why I'm writing, what my goals are for this blog, and what I want people to get out of it. The problem? I don't really know. I love processing things... be it through journaling, talking it out, or intense thinking. Do I actually expect people to read the mess of my thoughts and come away enriched? I mean it would be great... but reality often falls short of our expectations...  So I guess I'm writing just to write. Of course an audience for writing is always nice...

So yes, this is a new thing for me. A beginning. It's exciting to think that in a few months I will be able to look back at this first post and see how things have changed. It's exciting to know that God has planned things for me that have not yet even crossed my mind... It's scary, though. It's scary to let go and be ok with where He might take me... I guess that's the inspiration for the title of this blog. This whole semester God has been teaching me over and over about how I need to be still. To rest in His presence. To shut out the distractions. And know. Know what? That He's God. I'm not. He's in control. I'm not. To rest in the knowledge of who He is. But not just the head-knowledge... the heart knowledge. To really, truly experience who He is in everything that I am. To let His peace invade my life.